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Coronavirus Diaries: Stay Safe, Stay At Home

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I wrote this post on May 9. Since then (June 6), lockdown has eased a little and we can now meet others outside. I met Simon for a walk half way between our two counties and my friend Caroline for a ‘social distanced’ cup of tea in her garden.

The worst thing for me personally are the negative feelings. Thankfully, these are always temporary and don’t last long, my wellbeing is generally okay, but I am aware that the pandemic and lockdown must be affecting many people in so many adverse ways.

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May 9: Many of us around the world will be going through a weird dystopian phase right now thanks to a virus. In Britain, we are currently in lockdown, it has been called a ‘soft’ one as we are allowed out for exercise.

Even though this is supposedly ‘soft’, this is affecting people badly in so many ways.

In Britain we have a slogan – Stay at Home, Protect the NHS, Save Lives. I am working from home but for broadband reasons I work from my parents’ house. We are effectively two reclusive households (living two miles apart) behaving as one.

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I go to the small Tesco convenience supermarket about 8pm, it’s quieter then. I have walked the family dogs, Teddy and Molly, in quiet country lanes and in suburban settings, moving away from passers-by – and they from me – as if we all have the plague.

I haven’t seen my partner Simon for nearly two months. A long-distance relationship of ten years, we usually meet every three weeks. I think, hope, we can survive this uncertainty as a couple.

I stay in touch with friends via texts and messages. Maybe I will get the hang of video hangouts one day.

I spend my weekdays working and my weekends with my animals, reading through my To Be Read list, working through a course and writing. There is the decluttering which I keep putting off but needs doing as well…

My lockdown pile of books

At night, I have started having wistful dreams of visiting secondhand book shops and going for a swim. Choosing a gym.

I am having flashbacks of previous weekends away and holidays, days out and meeting friends and family. The fear of climbing down Helvellyn and other mountains (and the exhilaration afterwards) and the simple pleasure of a pot of tea in a village cafe or browsing in a book shop for an hour.


I miss seeing Simon and my friends.

Having the freedom to go places without stressing about social distance or ‘is this even allowed?’

I’ve worked in a precarious industry for years so job uncertainty has always been the background for me – but I always thought if and when I got made redundant, there would be other jobs, other opportunities.

Now I’m not so sure.

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Seeing my parents, being around my animals, keeping in touch via technology, nature, reading and writing keeps me going. Being an introvert and happy in my own company helps.

But this is only my story, how are others faring? So far, this virus and the lockdown hasn’t touched me too badly compared to others. Others have died, lost loved ones, lost jobs or businesses… This pandemic will hurt many of us in some way.

The irony is that I felt last year went too fast, I wanted it to slow down. 2020? I can’t wait for it to be over and normality to return.





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13 thoughts on “Coronavirus Diaries: Stay Safe, Stay At Home

  1. The lock down really hasn’t affected me either but like you I am aware of the dreadful affects it has had in so many places. Things will never be as they once were but I think that could be a good thing. I shall also be glad to see the end of ’20! Stay well. Hope you see your partner soon.

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    1. Thank you. Thankfully, things have changed here and lockdown has been eased so I’ve been able to see Simon more often. There is, however, now a risk of local lockdowns and tightening of restrictions so am taking each day as it comes. We’re hoping to have a holiday next month. Normally we’d have booked by now but booking too early feels like tempting fate this year! It’s been a strange year. Hope you stay safe too.


  2. I think there must be many people who fall into this category of not being as affected by COVID-19 and the lockdown. Until I spoke to one of my neighbours the other days, I had no idea about anyone in our community being affected directly. Perversely though, this is one of the consequences of lockdown: not being as aware of what is happening in the lives of others.

    I do hope it will become easier to see your partner and your friends soon. At the farm where I volunteer in N. Yorks, they’ve been talking about how we can go back, whilst maintaining social distancing. I think this would be totally doable, except that I live 40+ miles away and therefore wonder if that is too far to travel?!

    I’m glad at least that we can now officially take a car journey to access places for exercise, which has meant a bit more variety; we can also take a picnic and are more likely to see other souls (albeit at a social distance), so feel less cut off from the rest of humanity.

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    1. Lockdown has been a strange experience. I’m glad it’s being eased and I’ve been able to see Simon and my friends. The uncertainty is still there though, especially after other areas have been put under tighter restrictions again. I’ll be glad when this is over!


  3. I have not been affected physically at all, but then I ignored the entire damn thing. Here is what I learned: the level of political stupidity can create avenues of bullshit that can only be classified as “a new frontier”.

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    1. Sometimes it’s hard to know what to make of it all. One scientist says one thing, another says the opposite. Coronavirus will kill some people and only mildly affects others, if at all. Lockdown saved lives in the UK in the short-term, but I dread to think what the repercussions of lockdown will be further down the line. Already thousands of jobs are being lost and I’ve heard cancer sufferers have had treatment delayed. And we still have the uncertainty of potential local lockdowns/tighter restrictions. A worrying time.


      1. The repercussions are multi layered. The body NEEDS to be exposed to build up its own defenses. It has been this way forever. Your body cannot build a defense without exposure. At some point, you WILL catch this, just as sure as you catch a cold in December.

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  4. I hear you Clare, even the worry about losing my job as things have slowed down so much and you would think a labor attorney for management side would be busy, but that is not the case. My boss hopes (or hoped) to work until age 75, which will be two more years. He likes to work and really had no intention of shutting down the office, and since it is just the two of us, and I work from home, I would retire rather than look for other legal secretarial work. I turned 64 in April. I hope I don’t have to go that route to be honest. It is a scary world out there – since I’ve worked from home since 2011 and have no family, I am used to being an introvert too. You and I can self-entertain at home or on walks, but doing errands (which I took a morning to do and go out in a public space besides a park finally after many weeks) is something to do when necessitated and barely tolerable

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    1. I hope your job will be safe Linda. The uncertainty of everything is what worries me. Things have improved here in the UK to an extent – we are no longer in national lockdown and shops, cafes etc are reopening – but every time I think things are maybe looking up, there is a set back or a negative news story. I’ve become more focused on decluttering as at least it’s something I can control! And at least we have our walks and nature to help our wellbeing. Hope you keep safe.

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      1. Well I was not laid off Clare – two reasons for that and one is my boss has gotten back to a normal work pace during the last two months. Most of our clients are back to work and they are construction clients or manufacturing plants, so the employees cannot do their jobs remotely. So that is good, but many a day we had nothing to do from mid-March to the end of May. The other reason I did not get laid off is he will get a tax credit to keep me on the payroll. (Sigh) I am just as glad for that – the unemployment checks have now run out on 07/31/20 for those here in the U.S. and they await finding out if they will still get $600.00 per week, which economists say that people stayed on unemployment as they got paid better than a regular wage. The Government has not decided what the new amount will be. I am grateful for nature walks too Clare … it keeps from falling into an abyss of uncertainty. The resurgence has me very worried even though I live alone and work from home and no one comes to the house to visit. It is the people who do not want to wear a mask and protest it about it that worries me more than the actual virus.

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      2. I’m glad you kept your job Linda. The city I live in may end up with tighter restrictions again, judging by the news. More places are opening up and more testing is being done so there will be more cases but this means we may end up being locked down again, partially at any rate. I think it’s the uncertainty that’s worse for me. Thank goodness for nature!

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      3. Thank you Clare – I really don’t want to look for something else and I have worked from home for nearly 10 years. I could not begin to compete with others applying for legal secretarial jobs which have a lot of high-tech requirements even though I’ve been in this business for 40 years. My boss and I are still on Windows 7 – we have the equipment, but the computer guy has not hooked up everything yet. So, I was glad I kept my job, I listen to the news and it worries me more every day – I turned 64 in April. Yesterday they said we could double our deaths in the U.S. by December and that would be 300,000 deaths! They keep saying all we need to do is wear a mask and it would help to stop the spread, but people refuse. I do not understand the stubborn attitude to wearing a mask, I really don’t, not when the stats are so bad. People here often flaunt rules and are defiant. I look forward to my daily walk and weekends to take longer walks out in nature – we are lucky we have discovered such a treasure.

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